Confidence

What is it that makes us feel confident?

is it how we dress?

is it our looks?

is it how we smell?

is it the car we drive?

or the house/apartment we live in?

our educational background?

the amount of money we carry in our pockets?

Whatever it is I know that I'm not self-confident. I am always second-guessing everything I do. I think before I am stepping out the door what will my neighbor think when she sees me. I think when I am about to walk into a bank what is the teller going to think of the way I am dressed. I think before I go into the supermarket the cashiers are going to notice how much weight I have gained. Why can't I act like a normal human being? 

 On a daily basis, I have to tell myself to get out there and step into the world and face these debilitating fears. Not to mention that now that I am getting older it just seems to be getting worse. This is
my number one self-limiting factor. Caring for what other people think how do we get that annoying thought in our heads. 


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